lesson learned hard way

(Dedicated to my Mother...)

21 years of age,hair till my shoulder,baggy jeans,rock music,gym,bike....well you get the picture.Made decisions some wrong,some right,trusted my friends with my life.But my greatest strength,my support,my mentor,my teacher,my guider,my God on earth my mother but did not realize it completely until 10 June.

On 10 June everything changed.Met with a serious accident.Well it was not my first accident,I had approx 4 accidents but escaped all those without getting hurt or hurting anybody,but this time it was different.On 10 June, due to my and only my fault, I met with a not to pretty accident that literally made me helpful & dependent on others ever for scratching my hair.I thought why this has happened with me,why I am undergoing unbearable pain even if I do little movement in my tiny finger.I do my morning prayers,I never hurt anybody,I never cheated anybody major,respected the girls and payed due respect to my elders but then also what did I do to deserve all this.

First night was the toughest,the pain was unbearable,I have been hurt before but this pain I can't describe.Forget about movement,every deep breath was accompanied by no sweet pain. I did not think that I deserved even a little bit of it. My parents took leave the next day.Everybody from my neighbours,friends & friends friend came to see me.From third day my new life began.Now that I had worked in company,I know how tough it is to get even a single day of leave. But on third day,I asked my mother,will you be able to take leave for this week because I am helpless,I can't even eat,brush,even move on my bed by myself.Mom replied I have raised you until now, I am pretty sure that I can do it now also.And as far as office is concerned, I have already informed my boss that I am on leave until my son needs me. You know the rest what happened after that and my situation goes like Justintimber lake song...cry me a river.

I knew in my heart that this accident had happened for a reason & I thought that reason was to give my dying relationship a fresh start as it was hanging by a thread.Thought it improved till the time I got better, but I was miserably wrong in thinking that that was the reason.I know now that God gave me a favour by giving me a chance to learn two things..Be stable and mature in life, and get to know who truly care and will always care about me. When you stop in life,you can see other people better.I spend more time with myself and actually was able to understand people better.It is easy to make a friend but different to find a friend who cares.But the most imp thing I found was my new renowned love,respect for my mother.Call me selfish, but I would have given at least a thought before doing this much care for someone but my mother didn't. Everyone says that my mother is best and I truly believe that every mother is.To say is one thing but to experience that care is another thing.I would not have learned this any other way,I learned the hard way but God knows that I would not have learned any other way. I did not thank you when you brought me into this world but I want to thank you this time for giving me life again.

Luv you ma,miss you too.

For Mystry Girl

It was a usual afternoon and I was busy as ever
not knowing that my next two years are going to change forever

Walking down the stairs,making my way to the mess
saw Her at a distance,wearing that beautiful dress

As She came close,it became clear
that She was the devil's angel I have been waiting for years

Not every beauty catches my eyes
but She was the one who would have got my attention day & night

Minding Her walk,looking at best as She can
ignoring me completely which I didn't care
as for those moments,I was somewhere else
in state of complete euphoria,forgetting everything including where I am

I wish time would freeze for eternity, less I care
Where I could just look at You,tell you how much I care
You are the most amazing thing I have ever seen
couldn't have made You better even if I have made you myself

As we see rainbow only after rain
the only question in my mind is
when will I c U AGAIN

What is Luv

This question has been on my mind since the day my dear friend told me that he is in love and believe me there are 6.92 billion people on third planet from sun then there will be 6.92 billion definations of love.So why not I share my 2 cents on love. What is love. how do you fall in love.When do you fall in love.How do you know you are in love. I can tell you that you cannot find luv, luv finds you. Luv is what makes you do anything and everything.There is no limit defined for luv.It is just like money or power, the more you have, the more you want. Luv comes in many sizes and shapes.There is your and mine fav. first crush in school, then comes more possessive love mainly in high school or in first year of college ,after that more committed luv. But the real luv is most difficult to find or should I say that it is very difficult for real luv to find you. True luv comes when you do not want absolutely anything, you just want to give.U should become just like god who knows only how to give and not expect anything in return.Does not matter how she look, what she likes/dislikes,how she walks,how to talks,whom she meet,what she eats,what she wears,whom she loves ....u will still do anything for her in the blink of an eye. It is only when you do not any expect anything you will get the most out of it.It is not like that you want the most that is why u r not expecting anything but it is the other way around.The luckiest man on the earth is not the bill gates or hugh hefner, the luckiest man in the world who has found the true luv and spends his life with her. If I get the chance I would want to be leonardo dicaprio in INCEPTION as he is the luckiest man cos he spend 50 years with his wife in a dream and got the chance again to spend 50 years with her in real world.Her body will change,her nature will change, her complete or hell,your complete world can change but what matters is your love,caring,respect for her does not change.It does not matter if you become the next millionaire or struggle to even arrange three meals a day but in the end of it all,you have few seconds left and the only thing you want is just to see her face even for a fraction of second then that is true luv.

I still remember

I still remember the first day I saw you,I still remember your beautiful hair,your breath taking eyes,your walk and that amazing smile.
I still remember the first time I heard your voice,first time I talked to you, the first time we went out,the first time we had dinner and first time I hold your hand which I would never let go.
I still remember the first time you looked at me,the first time you shyed away from me,the first time you hold my hand and would never let go.
I still remember the first time you cared for me when I fell sick, the first time your cried for me and the first time you prayed for me and the first time I felt that care.
I still remember the first time we went for late night walk and not notice untill the sun came up,still remember the first time you dance with me, met with my friends,the first time you laughed with me and the first time you looked at me and everthing froze for the first time.
You will always be the first and last one for me.